Full of regrets.

So upset and full of regrets.

Turn back time. Please.

I'm willing to make all the changes again.

I'm sick of myself, my body, my weight, my face condition.

Just teleport me back to the past.


Or perhaps, gravity will help to end it.



(Just let me rant please, I'm not feeling very good about myself. And it's not the 'O' levels that's affecting me.)

2 papers finished. 2 more left.

Geography MCQ: I think I did pretty well, since there are few repeated questions from the past few years papers. Ha, I think my overall Geography can score at least a B4!

Elective History: This paper is extremely special. To be honest, I feel that the source-based questions were pretty easy, while Structured-Essay was a little tough. I feel that I can get at least a B3 for this one!


2 more papers left to go: D&T and Science MCQ


I sincerely hope that history will repeat itself.

Despicable bastards. I hope you guys rot in hell.

It's all about the conflict in Darfur, Sudanese yada yada. It aroused interest in me because I had this conflict as a source-based section for Social Studies.

And guess what, The Janjaweed which is the Arab Militia aligned with the Sudanese have use a new method as a weapon of war.

No, not some poisonous gas nor some grenades or guns.

It's


RAPE!


I can't believe they use rape as a method to ethnically cleanse Darfur and other sections, according to NBC news.



One rape victim told the reporter about her encounter with one man. One of the things the man said "You are black. You have no place here. We will push you out of here. This land will remain for us." And the son of a bitch proceeded to rape her.



I seriously can't believe all these things are happening in the 21st century.

For God's sake, can some organisations do something to help these people?

Ending soon of 'O' levels, and many thanks.

'O' levels are approaching to its end, and there are many people that helped me throughout this rocky road. I would like to express my gratitude to these people for at least forking out time for me.

Teachers: Mrs Yap, Mr Desmond Chan, Mr Malvin Lim, Mdm Yao, Mr William Goh, Mrs Corrinne Teo, Mr Devan, Mr Tsung.

Students: Zi Cai and Long Wen. And also, people who have gave me morale support and encouragement throughout these months.

So grateful, too many people to thank.


Sorry if I forget anyones' name!






Gosh I can't wait to go diving!

Finished papers

Well, finished some papers..

English Paper; everything is alright, but for composition, I didn't had the time to develop the story well enough... but still hopes I can get an A2.

Geography Paper; pretty alright, B4 and above should be possible..

Physics Paper; was a killer, it was mainly on theory..

Maths Paper 2: Feels that I can pass, it gives me a shimmering hope.

Bored Birthday.

Received presents by XiBoon, Victoria, Clarence, Liang Zhi and Yingying! A waist pouch was given, and I simply love it! Next time, I can use it and put my handphone and other stuff..
And another one was a ceramic mug with Chinese printings on it. It's very nice. Still thinking if I should use it and brew tea for my study nights.. Mm..

Come to think of it, it's a really pathetic to have to spend my birthday studying for tomorrow's English and Physic papers.

Thanks to those people who wished me, really appreciates it.

And now, my birthday wish is to get a distinction for tomorrow's English paper, and hope my other subjects will do well. I also wish my friends will do well for their 'O's.

Speaking of 'O's, I had my papers today and yesterday.

Well, the Maths Paper 1 proved to be a challenge for me, but I have the confidence I will pass. Social Studies paper seemed perfect; techniques were correctly used, structured-essay question was spot on which was Merger and Separation which I chose. And to add some joy, today's Chemistry paper was easier than expected, which means I can pass.

I don't expect myself to score for Maths and Science, but I do hope they will pass.


Hope my birthday wish will be fulfilled.


Sigh, going to spend my birthday burying into books now. :(

Good luck to everyone taking their 'O' levels.

Extracted from: 'Bridge over troubled water'

Your time has come to shine, all your dreams are on their way.


Yeah, it's time for us to shine, so let's do our best, with no regrets for 'O' levels


Best wishes people.

Peace, don.

Full force. May ran out of fuel.

Mother Tongue exam was pretty okay...Getting a distinction shouldn't be a problem, considering the performance I've done and that most of the A1s and A2s people do not take the Oct paper..

I set my priorities and that I'm going full force, but may ran out of fuel. I'm way way way too tired. Many help were given to me, as I requested. Thank you guys for fulfilling my requests.

A private teacher who I consulted told me that all I need is confidence, to perform to my very best for English. I guess I have to tell myself that.

May God let me pass this one well.

And of course, those who takes 'O' levels.

Internet finally reconnects.

Sorry readers, my internet was disconnected weeks ago and couldn't blog. Many things has happened in school.

For my prelim results: L1R4= 23.

As for Science Practical, I nearly screwed up for Physics but fortunately, God helped me to tide over it. As for Chemistry, everything went smoothly except that I wrote Copper(II) Chloride. It was correct, except that being a smart-alec, I cancelled it and wrote Lead(II) Chloride. Oh well.

During the study breaks, almost all the teachers gave us remedials which interrupted many of our schedules, including mine. That's okay, because it was meant to be beneficial. However, some teachers were no-show (but valid reasons.) What was really infuriating that it was CANCELLED, and NOT POSTPONED.

Sigh. What's even more depressing is that about my English getting a distinction. Confidence is r unning low. Sure, I may not be as good as the others, but I aim for it. My actions speak for my words. However, I wonder if it is a misunderstanding or what, but I had some previous incidents with my teacher, and my instinct told me that he is not interested in helping me achieve my goal. I told some of my friends about it, and they agree with me based on the incidents I told them.

(And if the teacher is reading this, please understand that I judge is based on the incidents I've encountered, and no hard feelings.)

I really don't know what to do. I just hope God helps me to pull through this crucial one.

Vulnerable.

Over the past few days, got back some papers, which I felt was pretty average. I haven't got back all the papers, but hopefully soon.

Many encouraging comments from people which I felt was thoughtful. But one slight insensitive comment could crumble me.

I guess the only thing now to restore my confidence and motivation is to do well for my 'O' level Maths June Paper 2006.

As for my class, I think generally speaking, the last thing on my classmates mind is probably desperation to do well for 'O' levels. They could be so happy in the midst of such critical period.
Speechless.

Starting from tomorrow onwards.

I've straightened out my thoughts and decide that regardless of what happens tomorrow of the prelims, I will take it to my stride and work hard no matter what. I will make an effort to re-plan and abolish the current plan which I had 3- weeks ago. The current one wasn't very good.

I'll plan according to my weakest subjects and my forte. Work on weakest subjects to get at least a pass, and distinction for my forte.

Thanks for the encouragement people, as over the weekend I talked to a friend called Joey. Logics and reasoning made me think. So I've straightened out my thoughts and will do my best for 'O' levels.

For those who're taking 'N' and 'O' levels, let's do our best! And not forgetting my JC peers, Joel, Kaibin and ShengJun, let's all mug for our 'N', 'O' and 'A' levels!!!


I'm going to return my prayer today with my mom in the Waterloo street temple. Speaking of prayers, I still remembered an important advice which was given to me by God when I was drawing lots of my direction of life months ago.

He gave me this advice:


"Success can only be achieved through unfailing efforts."


I heeded his advice and worked on it. Through it wasn't fruit-bearing in the prelims, I would like to think that success will come during my 'O' levels.


Also, it's Childrens' Day today and I got my very own practical present. Haha, thanks alot teacher! (Wonders if I can reveal his/her name.) Ah never mind, you know who you are, and thanks alot teacher!

Failed.

I failed Maths miserably. Chemistry wasn't realistic.

I'm feeling extremely sad and disappointed. I seriously can't believe that some people of the class who failed worse than me can even talk and joke at this point of time. I'm amazed. While I had no mood to carry on with the other lessons, people were laughing, playing and having fun while the lessons were on. And I seemed to be the ONLY ONE having negative emotions.

"The result you get is equivalent to the hard work you put in."

The above sentence or proverb or whatever shit, is the top BULLSHIT sentence of all generations and era.

Hard work? I can even swear and vouch that I worked tripled that some of my classmates do. And the results? It's so unbelievable, you could even think that I'm incorrigible, and that I should burn the Maths Paper and mix it with water to produce a concoction and drink it, praying to God that I'll pass 'O' levels.

You will never understand my anguish.

A miracle that is vital.

Got back failing results which are Geography MCQ and Physics practical today.
I believe I could get a distinction for Chinese, though I got B3 for prelims.

I'm feeling very disappointed and demoralised currently. I already failed Geog MCQ and Physics practical. And to add fuel to the fire, our form teacher Miss Chen, said that our class had only 1 person who passed Maths and 1 who got D7. The other 22 of our class got E8 and F9.

And I'm truly hoping for a miracle, and that my prayers are answered. I may get my Maths results on Friday.


And a BIG THANK-YOU to my choir juniors giving me encouragement. Really needed that to boost my mood.

Interesting Toy-Catching Machine.

Okay, I'm sure everyone knows of toy-catching machines, where it varies with 2 or 3 claws. It's fun to play these kind of things, especially the toys inside are extremely cute.. If you're attached, you probably ask your partner to catch them for you, provided you're a female..

Cute and sometimes expensive plushies for you to catch.

Now let me show you this SUPER INTERESTING MACHINE.

Let me introduce you, THE LOBSTER GAME!

Yes, instead of plushies, they're catching LIVE lobsters for $2 per try! If you manage to catch them, it will be your cheap dinner!

And they're happening in USA, Japan etc. I'm not very sure about Singapore. But if you do know of one, do let me know!

Here's some pictures from the amazing machine!

"Yay, another cheap seafood dinner! I'm getting good at this!"

!@#$@$%@ *Struggles to break free*

Seriously, if I were a boss of a restaurant in Singapore, I would definitely import these machines. They're fun, interesting and is a good source of income. It will make both adults and kids be amazed by these machines.

I do hope Singapore has one of these machines!

Hopefully it's not a problem.

Personal news again.

Ha, over months and months of doing my D&T folio, it sure pays off! Thanks for the compliments guys!

Ah, and I took Physics structured paper, Elective History and Geography MCQ paper.

All went smoothly, but may not score well.


Geography MCQ paper was the unluckiest. I had common flu and was weakened. But still I tried my best to do them all.


Physics Paper and Elective History Paper, well, hopefully it should not be a problem passing them.


2 more papers to go.


I can't wait for Prelims to end and get back my results!

Young and gullible.

I accidentally chanced upon a website talking about Snoopy, the famous comic strip. But I don't know why I thought of Popeye, the sailor. While thinking of my younger days, I felt it was funny and stupid.

You see, I used to watch Popeye cartoons when VCD wasn't available at that time, and it was those tapes..

Just in case you don't know who Popeye was, here's a picture of him:




"I'm Popeye the sailor man!"


If you watched Popeye cartoons, you will know that during times of crisis, he would have this WONDERFUL SPINACH, which he will become SUPER STRONG!



Yeah, yeah eat your veggies! Especially Spinach and you will get strong!


And because I was young and naive at that time, I thought I could be as strong as Popeye. And mind you, I was damningly thin at that point of time. Because of my poor knowledge of vegetables, I just had to watch the cartoon to find out what spinach was.

And being gullible, I pestered my mom to buy spinach; which I don't know how to spell at that time, so I pointed out that I wanted what I want. And GUESS WHAT I BOUGHT?!


HERBAL JELLY!

I completely mistook herbal jelly for Popeye's spinach. And because Popeye swallows spinach as if it was disgusting to eat, I was extremely convinced that herbal jelly was spinach because herbal jelly is SO BITTER!

(Please don't ask me why I mistook some jelly for some sort of vegetables.)

After eating it with pride, I went around SHOWING PEOPLE HOW BIG MY MUSCLES WERE, when they were just bones, claiming I was fit like Popeye.

Which was something like this:

So I went around the neighbourhood, disgracing myself and act like Popeye, when it was obvious I was the pseudo one.

Come to think about it, those were fun childhood memories which I cannot erase. I'm sure you have your fair share too.








As I'm blogging, I'm feeling my arm muscles. And no, they doesn't felt like they were bones like last time. They felt abit stiff, but somehow flabby.

Just when I wonder what was that, something jolt me.

Oh, my fats.

Regret; the wasteful emotion.

During the whole afternoon today, I was in cerebration, thinking of many things that happened to me. The only emotion I felt was regret.


Regret that I didn't study at all during PSLE.
Regret that I didn't study well Maths during Secondary 1, to build the foundation.


I felt regret lead to many consequences. Like I went to Normal Academic which had to take 5 years with an aggregrate of 186. During this year's Teacher's Day, I was greeted by my Choir peers. Although I talked and chatted with them, deep inside me, I felt embarassed and ashamed.

Regret that I didn't study well during the Secondary 1-3.

A saviour; Mrs Yap came into my life during Secondary 2. She gave me after-school tuitions and encouraged me. However, the teachings always came to futile when I always DID BADLY for my exams. It was heartening to see that she didn't gave up on me. Even till now.

I suddenly had a wake-up call during Secondary 4, where I took on 'N' levels. This time, I worked damningly hard for all my subjects. I finally realised the importance of studies. It paid off during 'N' levels.

Before the 'N' levels, my Choir seniors (Sec 5 Serene, Pauline and Iza), helped me in the work, together with some friends such as Zi Cai and Long wen. Mrs Yap helped too.

And before the 'N' levels, I was feeling low, because of low motivation. I could still remember Mrs Corrinne Teo saying that the grade that a person that is equivalent to that person's hard work. I greatly beg to differ. I put in so much hard work during my exams and tests in Sec 4, only to get a ludicrously low 20/100. While my peers got Grade As and Bs without studying in a breeze.

During the 'N' level results, I took my results slip and glance through.

Maths. It was a B4. I was way over the moon.

I had a sense of self-satisfaction. From a PSLE score of D for Maths and 'N' level prelims with a score of 20/100, my score tripled during the 'N' levels.

And now, I'm taking a big milestone towards 'O' levels, which I think that genius Joel Deng is probably saying "It's so easy!" He said he missed 'O' levels. Eww.

Since Mdm Yow took over the baton for 5N2 Maths, I had to listen attentively though it was hard to adjust to her teachings. And of course 5N2, being the worst class (academically) of the 'O' level NVSS cohort, well, failed Maths for Mid-Year exams, which included me.

I'm more than 100% sure that people from the Express looks down on us, and even teachers and peers from 5N1. I wouldn't blame them. Being the vice-chairman of 5N2, I have to admit that there's a high probability that more than 50% of the class will not make it to at least polytechnic. But be rest assured that among the underdogs in the class, some of us will be will triumph and finish the last lap of the race successfully, if not a handful.

As for myself, I want to be one of the handful. I wouldn't want to retain.


Still, talk is cheap. I will still have to study hard and work for it.


And as for you reading this, regardless of how you are feeling now, I hope you give your utmost wishes and blessings, no matter if I manage to finish the last lap of the race by commenting on the comments or the Tagboard. Thank you.




And I can rest assured you that I will not regret one bit if I didn't managed to, because I've done my best. And I can answer that to my soul, to my heart and to people who gave me assistance, teachings and encouragement during the most important exam in my teenage life.

Reality in check.

I took a nap. And the nap was 5 hours.


Took my Pure Geography Paper 2 yesterday and Maths Paper 2 yesterday. Both, with insufficient time to finish them.

As for Geography, I'll be thankful if I can get at least a B grade.

Today's Maths Paper 2 kept me rushing questions, with ink flowing to the paper at all different directions. And I'd tell you the facts.

I failed to do the whole question of vectors, which had like 9 marks.
Plus other wrong answers and a high possibility to wrong accuracy.

I knew I had lost around 10+ marks just like that.

Furthermore, with the shaky foundation of trigonometry; toa cah soh thing, it further decreases my chance to pass the paper.


In this post, I wouldn't say I will pass or fail, though I told my friends my thoughts.

Regardless of whatsoever, just wanna thank Baohui, Mrs Yap, Zi Cai for their encouragement and teachings, and not forgetting Mdm Yao for teaching me this year.

Another thing. Don't just read things blindly in this post and give assumptions. You'll never know what will happen, be it negative or positive. :)

Did you know about the truth of Pluto?

Ever since Pluto was founded in 1930, people during that era was so amazed, that one of them named an element as Plutonium, which could be found in Chemistry's Periodic Table. Yeah, and even Walt Disney's famous Mickey's dog, was named Pluto as well.





"Who knows it's because I was named Pluto that I became so famous! Geez!"


I believe you readers including me learnt that the solar system consists of The Sun, Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto.


(taken from www.seeingsciencecclrc.ac.uk)



Now if you hadn't been reading news lately, you will be flabbergasted, shocked or whatever emotions that I'm going to tell you that,


PLUTO IS NO LONGER A PLANET!

The story:

Ever since Pluto got discovered, people initially thought it was as big as Earth, but as time goes on, people realised that it was MUCH MORE SMALLER than our Earth's moon. Yet it was still called a planet.

Now it does makes you wonder that, IF the definition of planet is based on its size, and Pluto is much more smaller than Earth's moon, is it correct to say that our Moon is also a planet?

(There are alot more other details about this whole Pluto thing such as the Kuiper Belt beyond Pluto etc, but I'm more general here. If you want to know more, do check out the internet yourself.)

There you go. Pluto's not a planet now.

And there you wonder, if Pluto's not a planet, what is it?!


Well, it's called a dwarf planet!!!

This declaration was decided during August 2006.

So as for now, we have 8 official planets and 3 dwarf planets in our solar system.

Demoralised.

So many questions that I doesn't know how to do in Maths!

I did Maths for the whole day with Zi Cai and I just came back from it, but I realised I doesn't know how to do most of the questions; Vectors, Mensuration, Shear and Stretch for Paper 2!!!

I'm easily demoralised.... What can I do? Paper 2 questions such as topics like Mensuration; not only they have around 10 marks or more, they're also linked! Like if you have careless mistakes for Part (a), chances are the questions that goes with it will be wrong!

AHHHHHHHHHH! I'm going crazy! Plus Pure Geography is on Monday!


Dude, someone send me to Institute of Mental Health, NOW!