Sorry.

I know, I haven't been blogging much, and it's kinda boring nowadays.

It's just that I haven't been able to blog out my thoughts well. And I'm just stressed out.

Thank you to those who stayed and supported. :)

5th June.

Enlisting in 5th June..

Nation called, and it's time to serve my National Service for the country. Everything is happening so fast, so hectic.

I believe this will be a major turning point for me in my life with a strong impact, although I don't know the direction of it. Let's hope everything turns out well.

Another phase, and I must be strong enough to face it. Talk about having trimmed hair close to skinhead is something which I never had.

Gotta spend time meeting up with friends, colleagues and acquaintances soon. I'm still deciding when to end work. Damn..

Enlistment date..

Knowing one's enlistment date is like taking back 'O' levels results.

So freaking anxious and somehow scary.

Some of my friends already got their enlistment dates.

I wonder when's mine?!

One of them. One of us.

"The rain is falling.
Defeat is calling.
I need you to set me free."



Working in a place where competition is nigh high, and sales-driven promoters quarrel over the slightest things, this is the worst that I've ever seen in my 4-5 years working as a promoter.



Vultures, crocodiles and lions roam the sales floor, with politics everywhere.





I've been trying to adapt to this place, which is a different ball game from anywhere else. And so far, I haven't been in a quarrel with any of them because I chose not to retaliate.



I mean, why would people come to work and cut each other sales and start quarreling? Shouldn't it be a happy place to work at? Competition should be healthy and encouraged but it wasn't meant to be.



It is up to this point where I feel I'm not cut to be a promoter. I'm not very aggressive. I'm not ruthless, and I'm not dangerous, and I seldom cut sales in order to maintain a good relationship with my colleagues. This is not me, and I believe no matter what, the customer should be in the welfare of getting what he needs, regardless of the brand.



But in the jungle, sheeps like me are meant to be eaten by other predators. In life it's always the same case. I'm usually the one being bullied and name-called.



Perhaps people haven't seen the side when I'm angry. Perhaps people haven't seen a raging sheep. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise to train my personality.





Soon, I will become one of them. One of us..

Affected.

Just a few hours ago, I've heard of this volcanic ash that's affecting major airports in Europe.

Here's an exerpt of the article:

A huge cloud of ash from the second major eruption in Iceland in less than a month blew eastwards across the Atlantic, closing major airports more than 1,000 miles (1,700 kilometres) away.

Britain closed its airspace to all flights. Nearly every airport in Norway, Denmark and across northern Sweden also shut down, authorities announced. There was major disruption in Belgium, France, Finland, Germany and the Netherlands.

More than 300 flights out of London's Heathrow and Gatwick airports and others in Britain were cancelled, including transatlantic services.

Never did I expect my overseas order would be affected too! Talk about being unlucky or what:

"Due to volcanic ash from an eruption in Iceland moving over Northern Europe, including the UK, all flights leaving the UK today (15/04/2010) have been cancelled. This has delayed your delivery and we kindly ask that you allow a further 1 working day to receive your order. We will contact you as and when further updates are received.Many thanks for your patience at this time."

Hanging by a thread.

I'm trying my best to hang on, and grit on my teeth.

I miss school, and I miss everyone.

Travel!

I can only look upon, as some of my friends went travelling recently..

Rebecca went to Perth to visit her best friend.

Daphne, Koon Xian and the gang is probably going Bangkok in June..

And more notably, CHERYL WENT TO EUROPE!!!!! She saw Effiel Tower, Stonehenge and Colosseum, and judging from her pictures it looks fantastic!!

I sometimes hate the fact that I'm different from some/most of my secondary school friends. They would rather travel to Taiwan, Thailand, Korea (probably influenced by K-Pop) or some random neighbouring countries!!

That's so unlike me. I rather explore western countries because I'm so interested in them. It's like being a frog in the well: You haven't seen the world.

Perhaps I should just go by myself.. and be a lone backpacker and see the world!!

Love.

"I hear them say
Love is the way
Love is the answer
that's what they say"

One of the devastating things that can happen to you is when you know that one of your relative's days are numbered.

And all the feelings like: why didn't I treat my relative better, or show some love etc.

Why do we always regret when someone's gone?

I've been trying to escape from reality by putting on my earpieces, bringing me to the world of music.

It felt wonderful, but at the same time it felt painful. It was as if something pierced through my heart.

Why?

The reality suddenly hits me with a hard knock in the head.

I will treasure every single person around me.

If it's a psychological thing, I will make sure I will not think about it this way.

So many issues to address, and I need the willpower.

God, please lead me and give me the strength and direction that I need.

Being a promoter and such.

After my last semester ended, I have been working as a promoter again, well, since the past 5 years. You see unlike me, my friends have been switching jobs here and there to strive for better pay, and different work experiences.

For me, I somehow like to stay in my comfort zone. I mean, my colleagues are good, the environment is good, the pay is considered not bad, why not? Unlike my friends who seek work experiences, I seek life experiences.

It gets boring a little every now and then, but I must say that being a promoter at town is a good experience for me.

As I sell high-end bedlinen, I encounter a lot of tourists, and we always strike a conversation every single time. Like how they love Singapore's weather, and what food they love in Singapore.

I'm too stupid to differentiate people (especially caucasians) from which country, and I always like to ask them.

I remembered there was this particular conversation which I had with this South African guy with 2 kids. The more we talked, the more I learnt about his country, and by the end of the conversation, he offered me a place to stay at his house, should I ever backpacked to his country.

I think its freaking awesome, because I've never really seen much of the world, and learning things and understanding their point of view, their culture and their views about stuff just makes me feel so excited.

And that's what I love about my vacation job.

I've been transferred to another departmental store, and I hope I'll adjust to its hostile surroundings easily. Wish me well!