Friday, December 31, 2010

The last post of 2010.

Hello blog. You know, ever since I enrolled into National Service, I've not been faithful in blogging out. Nobody's probably gonna read this, so I guess it's like having a conversation with someone.

Ever since my last post, things have gotten better and I cannot be more thankful than that. One habit that I've developed is going to town during weekends, and spend like nobody's business. Frugality? I've never thought of that.

After all, my leisure time is only during the weekends, and all I thought of was actually to eat and play, eat and play, and eat and play. I asked myself: Am I going to do this for the next 2 years?

No. And hence after much consideration, I've taken one of my lesser-favoured hobbies to a whole new level.

Buying a DSLR for Photography.


That made me real broke, but I decided to build up a personal portfolio, so that it'll be easier for me to find jobs outside after my service. I'll focus into photojournalism on occasional weekends.


Ah, did I mention that I've kinda lost touch with blogging and writing? I'm getting back the feel of blogging once again it seems.


Did I mentioned that I've lost 14kg during the past few months? Life's got better and I've gained back 2 kg, but I'm pretty much determined to maintain this weight of mine. I've been exercising some self-discipline, by running 8 km every few days.

I've been fat my whole life, and I don't want to get to that point again. It's really tough, especially given my personal preferences and choices, but I believe I'll prevail.

On the other hand, this year has been a good year in terms of health wise, and I'm glad my family and relatives are doing just fine. I'm also glad to have met some amazing people who guided me throughout my new journey. Even when I go jogging alone, I would think of the times where we ran together as a group, and how people encouraged and spurred me on. I'm really thankful for the memories, and thank you guys for being there.

Did I mention that I became more independent? In the past, I seemed to go out only if I had a friend's company. But now, I will still go out alone if there's no one to accompany me. A lot of people interpret this as being emo or assume I've got no friends or whatsoever. But weekends are my only leisure time, and sometimes, things just need to be done, even if I'm alone.

I've became more mature and braver, and I guess I've grown stronger, personality-wise.


It's the end of 2010, and I guess it went by in a flash. I've learnt that even if we're leading mundane lives, we can still make a difference in our everyday lives by making someone smile or making a positive impact in someone's life, even for a day, and with that I hope that in 2011, I can apply the same thing to the mundane life which I assume I'll be having.

And with that, I wish you a Happy New Year, with many blessings!


*2010 has been a year of significant birthdays personally: My 21st birthday, and my Mom's 50th birthday!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Wish it was just a dream.

I just feel that I should just visit this old avenue of mine, because the future still holds a lot of uncertainties for me, and I just feel like typing at this point of time. And for now, I'm scared.

These 4 months of training has indeed made me a stronger person, and I've lost tremendous amount of weight, and being tougher mentally.

But it seems that God wants to prepare me for a path that's tougher than I can imagine. I'm in a state of mixed feelings, and I'm not prepared at all.

It's all my fault I guess. Always hoping for the best, and yet when I fall, the disappointment sinks in. Friends around me seems to get the best deal, and I should be looking it in a different light, a different perspective.

I'm trying to be happy, I really am. But my personality makes me otherwise, and right now I need guidance, and motivation. Something that I can look forward to.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Things which can never be deciphered.

Life's been getting depressing as time passes, and I'm trying to stay positive.

I've been getting quieter and just keep to myself, except at times when I manage to let out a weak smile.

I went to the temple to seek some advice, and the interpretation was:

For the present moment, there will be some difficulties, be patient and wait a while.


I will try to heed this advice, and I'm trying to believe. Really. Sometimes, I hate myself that I'm so mentally weak, and physically weak as well.

Guide me through all of these, please.



Sunday, August 01, 2010

I've learn how to treasure.

It's been 2 months, and I'm still not used to this whole thing.

One thing that I've learnt since the past 8 weeks is that I've learned to treasure my parents, and relatives and my brother, not to mention friends as well. All these things, including my home which I've been taking it for granted for so many years.

I get depressed real easily, and trying to listen and singing songs to lift up my moods, and not mention that I've injured my back for the past one week and it hasn't recover for already 1 month.

I'll try my best to blog every weekend. I really don't know what's in store for me for the future.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Sanity.

Been a tumultuous period for me as I try to adjust, but let's just say that currently I'm coping fine.

I'll be strong, and I'll carry on.

Friday, June 04, 2010

National Service.

As you are reading this, I'm probably packing away to Pulau Tekong, for my National Service.


Fast forward after my graduation from Nanyang Polytechnic, and now Singapore called upon my service to serve the nation.


Just now I was at the temple praying for my safety, wellness and such, and I bumped into Howard, who was my favourite columnist and a role model, because I respect him so much. I suddenly realise that I have so much things I wanna achieve in life.


I called both my maternal and paternal grandparents to ask them to take good care of their health and eat well. My maternal grandmother, upon hearing the news that I was enlisting tomorrow, suddenly cried.


It suddenly struck me that being the eldest son in the family line, I am also the first to be enlisted in the army. I was also grateful and am thankful for all the well-wishes that my friends and family gave, and I feel truly blessed. I love every single one of you.



I have been telling myself that this will be a slimming centre, and that they are paying me to slim down, although 2 years is a long time.


I know that this 2 years of journey which I will embark on will change my thinking and life. And I won't be returning to Singapore for the next 2 weeks.


So as I embark on this 2-year journey, I thank you for all the support that you have given for this blog and your compliments for the past 5 years. This blog will not be closed, and like I said before: As long as I'm alive, I will continue to blog. (Maybe this time only the weekends)


I miss each and every one of you.


And I shall end this note with my shaved head, in comparison to a basketball:
Goodbye all.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I hate late nights.

So many stuff have happened, shall blog them soon.

Just wanna say that I hate late nights, cos they will make me get emotional when I listen to love songs.

I'll leave for a better place.

Monday, May 10, 2010

An unexpected opportunity.

Pardon my week-long absence, as it has been a rather busy week for me. I've finally taken a break for the next few weeks before my enlistment, and will be working a few days every now and then.

After this whole experience at a particular departmental store, I believe I'm not used to working in such an environment, especially when it's inevitable to be part of the politics between brands, with promoters quarreling every single now and then. I must say that my fellow promoters treat me very well.





Most importantly, I had one of the best customer experiences with people, and that it will etch a memory in me forever. One of the customers and his mum offered to shake my hand because he was thankful and grateful for what I've done for him and I was extremely happy.






But there was this particular customer which I must mention. I remembered vividly that he came to buy bedsheets, and he wanted to buy a few sets. He had trouble finding suitable colours, so I asked him about his wall and tile colours, and further on asking what kind of look and feel he wants for his room.


I gave him my opinion based on my visualisation, and helped him to match. He was quite indecisive because he was quite unsure about his mattress size and such, and he ended up buying a set. He was thankful and apologise to me for taking so much of my time. He then further asked for a namecard or any contact number that I could give, so that he can further request for me when he comes down to the departmental store.

I ended up giving him my personal namecard which states that I'm a graphic designer.


Few days later, I received a call from OWELL Bodycare, and the caller knew that I was working as a bedlinen promoter and that my service was extremely good. She also knew I studied design, and further on asked: Are you interested in being a Visual Merchandiser?


She said that I will be in-charge of some operational stuff and be in-charge of their displays and such. She hopes to be in contact with me, and said that she is willing to wait until I finish my National Service before hiring me. Of course, I need to work as a part-timer to understand the nature of their products and such.

I was in a state of shock, and I was overwhelmed.


I mean, seriously?!


What are the chances of a customer helping to refer you to do other jobs?


I know that there's no way that this customer will see this, but I just wanna say this:


Thank you sir, for appreciating the stuff that I've done and believing in me. And you gave me this opportunity to work with your contacts. Words can never describe how grateful and thankful I am to you, but I'm really overwhelmed with your kindness. I hope that one day if I ever see you again, I would like to take the chance to shake your hand in gratefulness. Thank you very much!!

Monday, May 03, 2010

I hate my personality.

Yesterday, I had a fellow colleague who shouted and pointing at me using his index finger at me in the sales floor right in front of fellow promoters and customers.

Come to think of it, it wasn't totally my fault, but I decided to apologise and give in because I didn't want a quarrel. But this guy kept shouting at my female colleague, asking her to quarrel after finishing work, to see who wins or whatsoever.

I was in a state of shock. In my years as a promoter, I never get shouted by any departmental store managers or supervisors, and I got shouted by another brand's promoter, accusing me of: don't you know the law here?

I somehow felt scared I must say.

After this incident, I hated myself. People say that I'm someone who's too nice, and too soft-hearted. That probably resulted in me being bullied by friends, and always attempting to retreat during a quarrel.


I mean, I have my own temper, and it's just that I haven't flare up my real temper to most people.

I know most people will probably retaliate given my position but for me I just chicken out.


I hate myself. Why am I like that?

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Sorry.

I know, I haven't been blogging much, and it's kinda boring nowadays.

It's just that I haven't been able to blog out my thoughts well. And I'm just stressed out.

Thank you to those who stayed and supported. :)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

5th June.

Enlisting in 5th June..

Nation called, and it's time to serve my National Service for the country. Everything is happening so fast, so hectic.

I believe this will be a major turning point for me in my life with a strong impact, although I don't know the direction of it. Let's hope everything turns out well.

Another phase, and I must be strong enough to face it. Talk about having trimmed hair close to skinhead is something which I never had.

Gotta spend time meeting up with friends, colleagues and acquaintances soon. I'm still deciding when to end work. Damn..

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Enlistment date..

Knowing one's enlistment date is like taking back 'O' levels results.

So freaking anxious and somehow scary.

Some of my friends already got their enlistment dates.

I wonder when's mine?!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

One of them. One of us.

"The rain is falling.
Defeat is calling.
I need you to set me free."



Working in a place where competition is nigh high, and sales-driven promoters quarrel over the slightest things, this is the worst that I've ever seen in my 4-5 years working as a promoter.



Vultures, crocodiles and lions roam the sales floor, with politics everywhere.





I've been trying to adapt to this place, which is a different ball game from anywhere else. And so far, I haven't been in a quarrel with any of them because I chose not to retaliate.



I mean, why would people come to work and cut each other sales and start quarreling? Shouldn't it be a happy place to work at? Competition should be healthy and encouraged but it wasn't meant to be.



It is up to this point where I feel I'm not cut to be a promoter. I'm not very aggressive. I'm not ruthless, and I'm not dangerous, and I seldom cut sales in order to maintain a good relationship with my colleagues. This is not me, and I believe no matter what, the customer should be in the welfare of getting what he needs, regardless of the brand.



But in the jungle, sheeps like me are meant to be eaten by other predators. In life it's always the same case. I'm usually the one being bullied and name-called.



Perhaps people haven't seen the side when I'm angry. Perhaps people haven't seen a raging sheep. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise to train my personality.





Soon, I will become one of them. One of us..

Friday, April 16, 2010

Affected.

Just a few hours ago, I've heard of this volcanic ash that's affecting major airports in Europe.



Here's an exerpt of the article:


A huge cloud of ash from the second major eruption in Iceland in less than a month blew eastwards across the Atlantic, closing major airports more than 1,000 miles (1,700 kilometres) away.



Britain closed its airspace to all flights. Nearly every airport in Norway, Denmark and across northern Sweden also shut down, authorities announced. There was major disruption in Belgium, France, Finland, Germany and the Netherlands.


More than 300 flights out of London's Heathrow and Gatwick airports and others in Britain were cancelled, including transatlantic services.



Never did I expect my overseas order would be affected too! Talk about being unlucky or what:



"Due to volcanic ash from an eruption in Iceland moving over Northern Europe, including the UK, all flights leaving the UK today (15/04/2010) have been cancelled. This has delayed your delivery and we kindly ask that you allow a further 1 working day to receive your order. We will contact you as and when further updates are received.Many thanks for your patience at this time."


Thursday, April 15, 2010

Hanging by a thread.

I'm trying my best to hang on, and grit on my teeth.





I miss school, and I miss everyone.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Travel!

I can only look upon, as some of my friends went travelling recently..

Rebecca went to Perth to visit her best friend.

Daphne, Koon Xian and the gang is probably going Bangkok in June..

And more notably, CHERYL WENT TO EUROPE!!!!! She saw Effiel Tower, Stonehenge and Colosseum, and judging from her pictures it looks fantastic!!

I sometimes hate the fact that I'm different from some/most of my secondary school friends. They would rather travel to Taiwan, Thailand, Korea (probably influenced by K-Pop) or some random neighbouring countries!!

That's so unlike me. I rather explore western countries because I'm so interested in them. It's like being a frog in the well: You haven't seen the world.

Perhaps I should just go by myself.. and be a lone backpacker and see the world!!

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Love.

"I hear them say
Love is the way
Love is the answer
that's what they say"

One of the devastating things that can happen to you is when you know that one of your relative's days are numbered.

And all the feelings like: why didn't I treat my relative better, or show some love etc.

Why do we always regret when someone's gone?

I've been trying to escape from reality by putting on my earpieces, bringing me to the world of music.

It felt wonderful, but at the same time it felt painful. It was as if something pierced through my heart.

Monday, April 05, 2010

Why?

The reality suddenly hits me with a hard knock in the head.

I will treasure every single person around me.

If it's a psychological thing, I will make sure I will not think about it this way.

So many issues to address, and I need the willpower.

God, please lead me and give me the strength and direction that I need.

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Being a promoter and such.

After my last semester ended, I have been working as a promoter again, well, since the past 5 years. You see unlike me, my friends have been switching jobs here and there to strive for better pay, and different work experiences.

For me, I somehow like to stay in my comfort zone. I mean, my colleagues are good, the environment is good, the pay is considered not bad, why not? Unlike my friends who seek work experiences, I seek life experiences.

It gets boring a little every now and then, but I must say that being a promoter at town is a good experience for me.

As I sell high-end bedlinen, I encounter a lot of tourists, and we always strike a conversation every single time. Like how they love Singapore's weather, and what food they love in Singapore.

I'm too stupid to differentiate people (especially caucasians) from which country, and I always like to ask them.

I remembered there was this particular conversation which I had with this South African guy with 2 kids. The more we talked, the more I learnt about his country, and by the end of the conversation, he offered me a place to stay at his house, should I ever backpacked to his country.

I think its freaking awesome, because I've never really seen much of the world, and learning things and understanding their point of view, their culture and their views about stuff just makes me feel so excited.

And that's what I love about my vacation job.

I've been transferred to another departmental store, and I hope I'll adjust to its hostile surroundings easily. Wish me well!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

If everyone cared..

Yesterday as I was on my way home with a few friends on the MRT, a blind man alighted together with us at the Dhoby Ghaut station, and started asking who could help him to get to the platform to Punggol.

Nobody responded to him, except for my friend to offered to bring him there.

It was really difficult, because he had to use a walking stick and he needed to "feel" the floor and his surroundings.

After this incident, I feel that I should be contented with myself, and be happy. Guess life is never fair, but we have to make full use of it.


Nickelback's If Everyone Cared is one video you have to watch, because it brings out an extremely strong message:


Saturday, March 27, 2010

Are you my halo?

I'm a guy who actually has crushes easily, and I hate that. But when I find my true love, I'm gonna sing Halo by Beyonce to propose to her.



My perfect scenario would be something like this:


My girlfriend and I sits at the Esplanade Outdoor Theatre, as part of the audience. Then, I would say something like: I'm going to get a drink for you.




At the stage is my band, filled with 3 backup singers. Then, the music starts, and I'll sing Halo to her.

There'll be a spotlight, probably tungsten yellow lighting to shine at her, indicating that she's my halo.




"Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace


You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away"


And I'll say:


Baby, you're my halo.
You're the one that I'll follow.
The one that makes me see tomorrow.


Cheesy or not? I came up with it! Then, she'll broke down to tears and accept my proposal!!


Previously, the song that I thought I wanted to sing was Touch My Hand by David Archuleta. It's a good song too!


PS: Just in case you haven't heard of this song, here's a link:


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Nobody understands how I feel.

Last year during December, I wrote about this post:

http://jameslancer.blogspot.com/2009/12/could-this-be-my-break.html


It talks about my goals as I approach the end of the final semester, before I finally graduate.

I promised myself, that I'm going to strive to work hard from the early semester, and my goal? To get into the Director's List.

Fast forward till today, when I got my results:


Project 5 (Final Project) = B+
Communication Skills = A
Design Seminars= P (Pass)


There was no Director's List, and to be real honest, I was expecting an A.

I had people telling me how impossible it is to do a magazine, but I did it.

I had people coming up to tell me how fantastic Scubazine is, and I had lecturers telling me how good it was.

I had people telling me that Scubazine doesn't lose out to those Scuba Diving magazines out there.

Some lecturers told me it was ambitious to do 72 pages of a magazine. But I managed to do it.

I had lecturers telling me I should be proud of my work after my presentation.

I had lecturers telling me my presentation stood out from the rest.

Some strict lecturers even told me that I did well, lecturers which I never expect them to said something like that.


WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED IN THE END THEN?

You know, ever since my attachment woes, I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WILL DO MY VERY BEST, AND THAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE IT NO MATTER WHAT, TO PROVE TO PEOPLE AS WELL AS TO MYSELF THAT I COULD DO DESIGN.

All those compliments and remarks, IT MADE ME BELIEVED THAT I REALLY MADE MY MARK.


But no, all I get is FULL DISAPPOINTMENT simply because I raised my bar level too high.

I KNOW MY DRAWING SUCKS. I KNOW MY PAINTING IS TERRIBLE. AND ALL THESE WHILE IN YEAR ONE, I STRUGGLED. AND I GOT A TERRIBLE GPA OF 2.

BUT WHY IS IT THAT HARD WORK DOESN'T SEEMS TO PAY OFF? I WORKED HARD SINCE YEAR 2, BUT IT NEVER HELPED.

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THIS WAS MY BREAK, IT NEVER WAS.


Maybe I wasn't cut to do design. I shouldn't have put in so much effort, because what I exchanged was were disappointment that is currently overwhelming for me to handle.

I'm still in a state choked full of emotions, and I'm a broken man with damaged confidence.


WHERE THE FUCK HAVE I DONE WRONG TO DESERVE ALL OF THESE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

What's your definiton of success?

As I slowly approach the age of 21, I'm surrounded by people with aspiring dreams, and definitely people who dream of becoming successful.

Most urban people dream of the typical 5Cs - Cash, Card, Condo, Country Club Membership, and Car. Even people I meet, they always tell me their dreams are to earn like $10,000 or $20,000 per month. Money seems to be the main priority, and that's their way of being successful.


Not for me I guess.

Personally, I do not harbour thoughts of all the 5Cs. All I want is to get a job that will never fail to surprise/excite me, and combined with passion and qualities. The pay? I'm aiming for like $5/$6k, unless I'm a businessman myself.

Also, I want to start a family at the age of 29, and find a wonderful wife that I will stay truly devoted to. Ahh, unconditional love..

And people, that's my definition of success. I think it's rather simple, but definitely not over-ambitious.

What's yours?

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Cyanide, Cyan Hide.




It's a photo manipulation for a change. And somehow, I feel it represents me.

My world is devoid of colours, except cyan and black.

Black for being mysterious, and cyan, well, for its coolness and calmness. I guess it's a hint of mystery and excitement overall.

I've been listening to a lot of acoustic songs recently, and it helped in the distractions that I've been recently facing. Raining cats and dogs sure helped in the mood, and I couldn't ask for more.

Out of a sudden, I missed Sok Pheap. That gracious smile.


Now, nothing could change what you mean to me.
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now,
Cause our love will light the way.

Friday, March 19, 2010

If you're working for MLM, you're probably gullible.

Whoa, what a statement. I've been recently approached by an acquaintance, who told me that his friend is opening a shop at Marina Square selling diamonds, and insist I come down to take a look and probably to help him out.

After reaching there, I realise it was all too familiar. Multi-Level-Marketing (MLM), otherwise known as network marketing, referral marketing or pyramid-selling.

I could still remember my first encounter with a MLM company, called the Sunshine Empire, whereby you would be able to see lavish decorations, filled with opulence and decadence in the company.

People as young as 19 years old were wearing suits, and looking smart, with titles given to them as mangers and directors. HECK, some of them even had their own offices.

The person who tried persuading me to buy their products were extremely persistent, but definitely annoying. I was required to pay an amount of $500, which I was promised to earn a lot of money, like $5k per month.

I rejected him ultimately of course.


This time round, I was fooled into going into this MLM company again, and allow me to break down the things he tried enticing me. (WITH MUCH SKEPTICISM)


1. Brought me to this office, showing me his products and that their opening a shop in Marina Square. (Ok, still sounds alright.)

2. Had this lesson attended by 4 people. I nearly fell asleep. The guy was telling about how good the products are, and how it is endorsed by many celebrities.
(Listen, celebrities endorse products for money, and they do not necessarily have to try the products. But I must say that it's a good attempt to show your credibility to some unknowing customers.)

3. Had this publishing claim, which I forgotten what it means, but he said that no other companies would dare to make a claim like that.
(If you dare to make that claim, why would it be so difficult to read? It was like 4 pt size? If that claim was that good, why didn't you make that a selling point and blow it up big?!)

4. Show us lots and lots of newspaper articles and such.
(Newspaper articles show a lot of actual information and promote credibility, but one thing that people tend to forget is that.. THE DATE OF PUBLISHING. Have it ever occurred to you that these articles are dated years back or decades ago, in which the information might not be relevant or accurate now?

5. You can earn 8-9k, $12-$15k a month, and get titles like: Regional Director etc.
My bullshit detector starts working, and one thing that you need to take note is the word: CAN.
You CAN earn such money, but doesn't mean you WILL. Having said that, I do believe a handful or maybe 2 or 3 earns such figures a month, but what about the rest?

They keep insisting that they earn like $9k or $12k, but where's the proof? I don't see you showing me your pay cheque, or neither do you wear shirts from Raoul, A|X, Gucci or whatsoever? It doesn't seem logical that if you earn a 5-figure amount, you would buy clothes from G2000 or CK Departmental Store?

And the titles: Directors, Managers, whatsoever. You can self-proclaim to these titles, but whether people does believe you is another different question.


6. In order to earn like them, first you have to spend like them.
You need to spend 5K on their products, and re-sell them to your friends and relatives, so that within a few months, you can earn like them.

In other words, it's actually: potential exploitation of personal relationships which are used as new sales and recruiting targets.


I could seriously go on and on, but I'll just stop here. Hope this provides you an insight of how they work, and DO NOT BE ENTICED BY THE EXAGGERATION OF THE RICHES!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

What is wrong with me?

As of now, I'm suffering some sort of a mood swing. I'm suddenly feeling so emotional and sad, do allow me to blabber and just treat it as nonsensical talk.


I looked at myself in the mirror, and I realise that some wounds can never be healed. I simply cannot let any single one touch my face. I can't imagine if my girlfriend squeezes me on my cheeks, because I'll feel terrified as I feel it's dirty.

I know I'm being insecure deep inside my heart, but I just cannot help it. I've been trying to change my sense of dressing with some success, and that's because I've been trying to look for love. One of my lecturers say people at my age gets real emotional and faces identity crisis. Guess that's true.


Sometimes I feel I don't belong to this world that I live in, and I feel so pressurized and breathless because of the suffocation of the boundaries that I face.


I'm eccentric, weird and anything that you can call me.
Guess I need to be alone for a while.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Speechless.

Sometimes, it's not because I'm speechless.
Nor am I in a loss for words.

It's because some things are better left unsaid.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

UNIT 10 GRADUATION SHOW.

Hi guys, should you be free between today to this Saturday, do come down and support my graduation show!

It's at Nanyang Polytechnic's Auditorium!





Do come down! Thanks!!

Monday, March 08, 2010

My grandfather is a hero.

Sometimes I feel like faltering when I bump into an obstacle, or when I get emotional at times. It's sad to say that I'm mentally weak.

That's a stark contrast compared to my maternal grandfather, who's been through so much hardship. I went to visit him at Singapore General Hospital (SGH) today, and he was admitted into the hospital because he had testicle cancer. Tumours were detected on his testicles and his testicles had to be removed.

I'm shocked. When a man loses his testicles, that's equivalent to a woman losing her breasts. It's a major sacrifice, because it's do or die. And I salute him for that.

I'm also proud to say that he survived colon cancer as well.

I feel so ashamed of myself, and I promise that I will live meaningfully and be happy every day.

Grandpa, you're my hero! :)

Thursday, March 04, 2010

NAPFA Test

Did my NAPFA test, (a fitness test that is compulsory for every male Singapore citizen)
and I was pretty happy with the result. I'm not someone who excels in sports excellence and I'm satisfied that I could pass my Sit & Reach, Sit Up and Shuttle Run.

I'm already getting prepared to be trained and enlist one month earlier.

Those muscles aches are coming, and I can almost feel it.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Wonderful Night..

I was invited by my company for its D&D (Dinner & Dance) dinner at Kbox E hub! at Downtown East. It was great to see some of the familiar colleagues at the party.

That night was awesome, because I won a set of canned abalone, sharks fin and another weird-looking stuff.

On that night itself, the company organised a singing competition, and I belted out Kelvin Tan's I Love You, and guess what? I won the competition! It was the first time that I won prizes for my singing!

The feeling was damn good I tell you!


Digressing a bit, a lot of events have happened recently, and I didn't think that was too much of a coincidence. God, do you really have things in plan for me?


Saturday, February 27, 2010

We Are The World.

As of now, there's still widespread coverage of the earthquake in Haiti. In case you didn't know, the 7.0 magnitude earthquake was the strongest for the past 200 years.

In America, a group of artists come together to sing Michael Jackson's We Are The World. Fantastic voices across all genres, this is definitely a must-see!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Yuji Kimura - Margins and Memories.

I decided to take a day off from friends and family, and came to town and botanical gardens, in order to do some soul-searching and straighten out some thoughts. At the same time, I visited Japan Creative Centre, which is currently holding an exhibition of Yuji Kimura's editorial designs.




I lost my way there, and I went into the residences of Nassim Road, where some of the rich and wealthy live. Middle-class people like me can only watch in awe.

Back to the topic, here are images that I took at the exhibition, so do enjoy!
























I must say that his works are extremely experimental, and some are good and interesting!



Saturday, February 20, 2010

A fresh beginning..

A new 2010, a Happy Lunar New Year (though it's still February), and a new blog template!!

It's been like 2 years since I've changed, and this template would not be possible without the help of my brother and Jun Ping!

The buttons are not working yet, as I need to prepare them, but at least the skeleton of the blog is done, with many small adjustment to fonts and its variations every now and then.

Now that I'm free, I'll start to blog!!


*Any suggestions/comments are appreciated!* Just write them in the tagboard!

Friday, February 05, 2010

I'M STILL ALIVE.

Yes people, I know I haven't been blogging for a month or so, and surprisingly I still have a number of readers who keep checking back frequently. Thank you very much.

I've been really busy with schoolwork. Just give me 1 more week, and I promise I'll update frequently. There are simply too many things that happened within the one month, and as I'm typing, Year 2010 has been a rollercoaster ride so far.

I'm still on that ride, and I think the ride is about to end, soon. Real soon.

With that, do check back for updates!